Saturday, August 28, 2010
the life we are born into is without choice. just bite your lip~
Friday, August 27, 2010
Its my dearie's birthday week! Haha after searching for a suitable backpack for weeks, I decided to settle on getting a crumpler for her present. Managed to surprised her that day outside her LT with her camp comm friends! Apparently she really thought I wasn't going to come to find her...haha that silly girl =) And I almost went to the wrong LT! Coz I thought her lecture was at LT 2 but it turned out to be LT12 instead. Fortunately Geyi mentioned this to me and prevented me from committing the most "gong" mistake in the year. Anyway seems like she really likes the present! Gotta trust ur own instincts sometimes instead of worrying too much about what other ppl say! Although I really value the feedback and suggestions that were given to me too~ Thanks guys! U noe who u are =P
Saturday, August 14, 2010
My heartfelt condolences to lihui and her family...
Thursday, August 12, 2010
I think one thing I enjoy about working life is that I get to see the sun rise and set everyday. Hope I get to see more sunsets on the way home coz that would imply i get to leave work by 6~ Hahaha!
Went swimming today! Wonder how long I can keep up this exercise regime...go matthew go! =D
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Went running for a second time this week. Knee seems to be managing well so far except for some tightness. Its really troublesome to have to jog so cautiously tho...But still at least I can do somethign else other than just swimming. Never take your knees for granted!
Going to start losing weight for my dearie!
Goal in 3 months: Down by 5 kg!!!
Monday, August 9, 2010
i've done it again~ allowed my blog to rot to the deepest recesses of time. but now i feel like writing once more.
sadly the motivation for blogging again isn't a good one. some revelations were made known to me last week which set me thinking and reflecting on myself. sometimes i wonder just how well i know myself. perhaps all this while i've been holding on to a very self-conceived image of myself, constructed for the pure convenience of putting my conscience at ease so that i can rest peacefully every night. and everything feels all right... until someone comes along and openly challenges this idealistic image of myself.
and then all the cracks which i have been trying so hard to conceal become so evident to me again. my flaws and insecurities start pouring out and my insides don't feel like they belong to me anymore.
i've always felt that i'm a simple person at heart. not wanting or expecting a lot from anyone or anything and just wanting to lead a happy life filled with smiles and laughter. but yet i still do things that just end up complicating my own life and hurting people along the way. haunted by the consequences of my very own actions.
i hate feeling this way. hate feeling my own confidence slowly seep away and leaving me trembling in the naked cold of my own guilt. a rude wake up call to the reality i've been escaping from.
i wonder...just how self-blinded have i become all these years? i'm sorry...
was chewin' grass at
12:46 AM,